Oh The Suspense!

So let me tell you how Friday went.  I asked the Hubs to come with me because I was nervous how I would react to bad news if we received it.  We get there at 9:00 and my heart is racing, palms are sweating, anxiousness galore.  I’m trying to be positive and believe that I’m pregnant.  I mean, I had one symptom (sore abs??) so that is a good thing. 

I thought, obviously, we would get the results at the office that morning.  Nope.  Melissa drew my blood and then said they would call us around 11 am.  OMG.  Emotional roller coaster.  So the Hubs went to work and I went home, I took the day off, to chill out.  I distracted myself by doing chores and reading a book.  11:00 am comes and goes and no call (except the Hubs).

At noon (finally!!) Melissa calls and I can just tell by her tone of voice she had good news.  She said beautiful words to me, “congrats Lindsey you’re pregnant”!!  I was beside myself.  Very very very happy.  Melissa also said not only was it a positive but I had a quite high beta number – 556.  What that means, is the amount of HCG (pregnancy hormone) in my blood.  The importance of that is, if the number is low (less than 25) it could be a chemical pregnancy.  No chance in that with a number as high as 556!  Additionally, a more “normal” number is around 100….I had 5X that! Such positive news!

As soon as I hung up I burst into tears, got down on my knees, thanked God and then called the Hubs.  He was elated.  He was at lunch with a coworker and after I shared the news there wasn’t much more to be said at that point.  After we hung up, he continued to text me periodically throughout the day… “I’m so excited”, “I didn’t think it was ever going to happen”, “I love you so much”, “I cannot believe how happy I am”.  When he finally made it home, he had brought me three bunches of flowers (I like the make the arrangements myself) a giant hug, and a huge smile.  Although I always wanted to “announce it to the Hubs in a special way (positive pregnancy test as a gift, little baby socks, etc.) due to our journey, this was equally great. It was a really fantastic day, I love you baby.

The Hubs and I disagree on announcing this to family yet.  I would really really like to wait at least until the end of March, which would put me at 8 weeks.  Still not out of the “danger zone” but much better.  The Hubs doesn’t understand my fear of having a miscarriage and then having to discuss it with other people.  He doesn’t understand how hard it would be for me.  He says, “just tell people you don’t want to talk about it”.  Well I have to talk about it as soon as they ask how the pregnancy is going and, God forbid, it’s not, ya know?  So we’ve agreed (him reluctantly) to wait and tell everyone at Easter.

Today, I went for my second blood draw and they are wanting to see the number more than double.  I will get a call around noon with the results and also to schedule my next appointment, which would be my first ultrasound to look at the little Nugget.  If everything goes well, I’ll be released from IVFmd to my Ob-GYN and hopefully have a normal, wonderful pregnancy.

How do I feel? Emotional-wise I’m: amazed, blessed, nervous, super happy, anxious, ecstatic all rolled into one.  Physically, I just have the sore abs and a bit of cramping.  That’s it.  No nausea or anything (woohoo) but I should probably wait to see what is to come before I celebrate.  A fellow IVFer that had her baby last year said, be cautiously optimistic – I feel like that’s appropriate.

This journey of life is about to make a HUGE change and we are more than excited!

Welcome

It’s T-minus 5 months 22 days until this girl turns 30 years old. I’m not a happy camper.

Which does not make sense…everything is going in my favor. Well, truthfully we’ve wanted to have kids for about 4 years now and that has been a challenge but if I’ve been blessed with all that I have to this point, I really shouldn’t stress about one thing not going exactly the way I want it to, right?

I did everything right…went to college – UNT – Go Mean Green! Made awesome friends who are still my besties. Met a great guy. Got a job. Lost a job. Moved to San Antonio with said great guy and got married. Got a new job. Bought a house. Lived happily ever after. Sorta. 🙂

I am very happy. I love Josh (aforementioned guy) and we recently celebrated our 5 year wedding anniversary. In a world where the sanctity of marriage is cheapened by people like Kim Kardashian, I am proud of our 5 years. The best part is I can totally see us celebrating 50 years. I cannot live without this man so I’m pretty sure I made the right decision snatching him up. We moved to Houston this past summer for a job opportunity for me. We did the long distance thing for about 4 months until Josh got a job, which was challenging but nothing we couldn’t handle. We were unable to sell our house in San Antonio because of the lovely market but luckily we got tenants very quickly (it’s a super cute house that received lots of TLC from the Allen’s for 4 years). We are renting in Houston and enjoying living in the city. So we’ve recently had a bunch of changes in our lives.

So here I will document my great journey of
1. Turning 30
2. Trying to get pregnant
3. Surving my 30’s….