Stabilized

I had a doctors appointment yesterday.

This time we arrived with a packed bag, just in case they sent me back to the hospital. 
Dr. Graham said, “Remember, I’m just the messenger”. Good thing the results showed that I’ve stabilized at 2.6! That means I got to go home! 
Whew!
When he started the sonogram to measure the amniotic fluid, he put the wand on my belly and it was a super clear shot of one of the Nuggets. He was moving his beautiful little lips and I was so excited. I feel them move all the time, I see my belly moving all the time too but it’s just different when I get to see them moving from the inside. 





 

I’m obviously already head over heels in love.
 
We also made it to 29 weeks!
Sorry for the crummy picture.  My photo editing software was acting up.  Or maybe it was my laptop.  Either way, I couldn’t crop and edit the photo very well.
 
This bed rest has caused me to lose some weight.  I don’t think it’s weight in a good way, probably any muscle that I managed to keep is now gone.  I cannot even imagine how hard it’s going to be to get back into shape after I’ve been given the all clear.  I think I’ll start with yoga and running walking.
 
Current pregnancy “side effects”:
  • Good sleep is quite hard to come by, because it’s I am easily uncomfortable.  Nugget B looooves to put his bum in my ribcage. Nugget A loves to give a swift kick in the middle of the night.
  • I’m craving Reeses Pieces.
 
Aside from the obvious bed rest, that’s about it.   Things are back to being pretty easy.  Except that I’m going crazy having to be 100% reliant on The Hubs.  He’s had to do everything around here.  Cooking, cleaning, shopping (his least fav), laundry, driving me to my appointments…I don’t even know what I could do for him to express my thanks.
 
My next appointment is on Wednesday, so until then I’ll enjoy being home!
 
XOXO – Lindz

Freedom!

We just arrived home from the hospital.

I went in on Thursday.

I had a regular scan appointment on Thursday, as I walked in the appointment the nurse there (who also works with the doctor’s at the hospital) mentioned how I “got out” referring to the 1st hospital visit. Well the babies looked great.  Nugget A is 2.7 lbs and B is 2.3 lbs.  Looking good for 28 weeks!!  Then the cervical scan happened …the doctor said 2.6.  Then he said, “time for you to go back to L&D”.  I started laughing. I asked if he was joking.  He replied, “no ma’am.  You’ve had a drastic change in 1 week and you’re still having contractions, time to be readmitted for bed rest”. 

I put my hands over my face and started laughing, the nurse tried to give me a tissue.  I was like, “I’m not crying, I’m laughing because I cannot believe this is happening again”.

I called The Hubs and he left work to meet me at the hospital. He wasn’t a happy camper. They monitored me and right away established my contractions were regular and close.  This is the reason we’re thinking the length keeps shortening too.  So I got another shot to make them stop. 

Called the girls and let them know another shower is going to be canceled.  😦  I was so sad.  The doctor came in Friday morning and mentioned that we could possibly use a conference room downstairs in the hospital for the shower.  My besties were all over it.  They rearranged everything.  They were totally awesome and everyone was able to come.  I was very grateful. My doctor gave me a 2 hour window to be wheelchair-ed down there.

Hostesses with the mostess!

The whole group

As you can see, it was supposed to be a tea party theme.  They actually had it planned at a little tea house in Grapevine and since that was thwarted, we made due.  Again, I was so grateful to all four of them and the work they put into the making the event come together.  If you need a shower planned in less than 24 hours, I recommend them for sure! :o)

I spent the rest of the weekend, in a hospital bed.  My family was in town (for the shower) so Josh was actually entertaining company at our house and I’m stuck in the hospital.  My mom was very helpful too and everyone took turns hanging out with me.

This morning I saw the doctors again and was scanned again.  I’ve been monitored for the last 3.5 days and they felt that I was stablized enough to try at home bed rest.  Woohoo!  Definitely good news.

So I’m home as of this morning.  I’m helplessly dependent on The Hubs — which is hard for me, I’m very independent, buuut I’m home. 

Now I just need to not contract regularly or my length cannot change drastically again and I’ll be able to stay home on bed rest for the remainder of this pregnancy.  Otherwise I’ll be back in the hospital.  I’ll eventually be back on hospital bed rest but since the goal is to get to 36 weeks…that’s 8 weeks away.  I’d rather spend as much of that time at home.  I will add that Baylor Medical Center in Grapevine is steller but it’s being stuck in a hospital that’s not fun.

So wish us luck.  The Nuggets need to stay in my belly for a lot longer so they can get nice and plump and come out all perfect.

XOXO – Lindz

Scared-y Cat

I’m officially afraid.

We are attending a child birth education class with the hospital where we will have the babies. I signed up for several reasons:

  1. The Hubs doesn’t know as much as I do about lady parts/birth/etc and sometimes I forget that – so this ensures he learns about it all.
  2. It came with a tour of the hospital <– we actually missed this class while I was in the hospital – needless to say, we didn’t really need a tour after a 5 day stint.
  3. There is a whole class devoted to breastfeeding.

Last night’s class was education on pain medication/options and cesarean sections.  I was pretty knowledgable about my options.  I was surprised to hear a girl in the class say she thought an epidural was “just a shot in your leg”.  Perfect example as to why these classes are available.

Anyways, we watched a video on what they do during a C-section.  This is important to me because with twins, it’s highly likely that I’ll need a C-section.

  • They cut through the skin and fatty tissue really low on your belly — they might even shave some hairs….eek!
  • The doctor moves your muscles aside.
  • Then they stretch the opening and clamp it back (cringe worthy)
  • The doctor carefully cuts the uterus and pulls the baby(ies) out the opening.
  • Yay the babies are here!
  • Wait, we’re not done yet.  The doctor has to stitch or staple the three layered hole up – which takes about 45 more minutes.
  • You have to heal from major abdominal surgery while taking care of brand new twins.

Did I mention I’m scared?

Many, many, many women have C-sections.  Whether they are planned, unplanned or emergency, they happen all the time.  It’s practically routine. I’m still scared.  I think, overall, I’m becoming more anxious because there are going to be TWO babies.  Not one.  One newborn is a lot to handle in and of itself but I’m having twins.  I know it’s possible.  I’m just getting nervous. 

The Hubs is staying home with me for the first two weeks and then my mom is coming for a week but after that…I’ll be on my own.  I guess this is the opportunity to show off my super woman skills….right?

XOXO,

Two Resilient Nuggets

Well it’s been a week.  And what a week it’s been.

My last post was all smiles and giggles and happy to be proceeding along in pregnancy without too much fear of bed rest.  Then Thursday happened. 26 weeks along.

Thursday, early am (like 2:00 am) I started to get really uncomfortable.  I was having pains in my left side right by my hip bone and it pulsated down that side of my belly.  I thought for sure it was my round ligament/growing pains.  I did a lot of tossing and turning and was hurting a bit when I got ready for work.  I had a few meetings I wanted to keep that morning so I figured I’d get those done and head back to the house to work from home if the pain kept up.

My admin walked in and immediately noticed I wasn’t feeling well.  I went to my first morning meeting and was hurting so much, I apologized and asked to excuse myself.  I made a mistake trying to come into work that day.  Before I headed to my meeting though I had called the doctor’s office and left a message asking if this was normal.  By the time the nurse got back to me I was pulling into the drive way with a one way mission to hit the bath tub (hoping for relief).

After explaining my pain and the level it was getting to (I’d say about a 5 out of 10) she asked for me to just come in and see someone.  I never even got out of the car.  I headed that direction and debated calling The Hubs, thinking I might be overreacting.  I called and left a message and when I was halfway to the doctor’s, realized I doubt I would be able to drive home.  When The Hubs called back and asked if he should meet me there I said yes.

While I was at the doctor’s office things started to really really hurt.  I couldn’t seem to cope with the pain.  They laid me down to do a sonogram on my abdomen and I couldn’t do it, I got ill.  Then when I was in the next room waiting to hear what to do next, I was getting sick again, the pain was getting worse.  The Hubs was in the hallway at this point asking for someone, anyone to come help.  Not that the staff at Women’s Integrated Health wasn’t working on it, but things seemed to be getting out of control.  My doctor was then pulled in and she advised I be admitted to the hospital and she’d meet us over there.

Once in the hospital I thought I was going to split in half.  Pain levels were easily a 9 out of 10.  Worst pain I ever been in…even more so from when I broke my neck.  I was hooked up to pain meds and scans of my cervical length, abdomen, kidneys were all done.  Contractions were happening because my body was freaking out.  They were 2-3 minutes apart.  I received a steroid shot to accelerate the development of the Nugget’s lungs just in case. Shots to stop the contractions were given.  Freaking out.

Once my pain was “under control” the result was almost a process of elimination.  Everything I described, pain wise, lead the doctor’s to think I had passed a kidney stone.  There was also sediment and crystals in a culture they took. They were still monitoring the Nuggets and watching because my contractions hadn’t completely stopped. They wanted to keep me over night. 

Friday I thought I was going home.  My pain was still there but better.  Still monitoring the babies and contractions and they weren’t comfortable letting me go yet.  Saturday (the day of my baby shower) a new complication added itself to the mix.  TMI warning……I hadn’t gone to the bathroom (#2) and my food wasn’t digesting.  My already very large pregnant belly had distended even further and we were dealing with a bowel blockage.  This caused my white blood cell count to go up and a low fever.  That night a nasogastric tube was placed in my nose, down my throat and into my stomach for relief.  It didn’t offer any relief and I am scarred for life after that processes.  The next morning I couldn’t keep it down any longer.  Sunday was an entire day spent using a powerful laxative to hopefully unblock everything.  It was long and painful.

Monday I thought I was going home again.  My doctor still wasn’t 100% content because my white blood cells and my temperature were still up.  I was so disappointed.  I doubt I was really ready to go home because I still felt terrible but going home meant I was getting better.

Tuesday Dr. Kindrick came in and she said my blood work came back much better, she though I look better and if I was ready, she would let me go home.  I was happy.  The Hubs was probably happier.  He was an astounding partner through all of it.  Spent every night on the couch in the hospital room next to me, helping with everything.  It would have been 10 times harder to have done it without him and I’m glad I didn’t have to.

Now that I’m home though it’s been frustrating.  Like I said before, going home = getting better.  Just not fast enough.  I am still having to take Tylenol every 4 hours, on. the. dot. Otherwise I feel like shit.  I move as slow as a sloth.  It feels like I had a surgery where I was cut open, not just a kidney stone/bowel blockage issue.  The doctor’s warned me that I would be pretty sore because my insides were really beat up in the process and add being pregnant on top of it, would increase my recovery time.  I will add that several women who have had kidney stones and kids, said that the kidney stone was more painful then child birth. Wow.

So I’m struggling a little bit because I’m still hurting a lot.  I want to get back to “normal” and get things done.  I’m beyond grateful that the Nuggets went through all of this with minimal issues and I’ll take the brunt of anything to keep it that way.  My pregnancy was SO easy up to this point so I don’t feel like I can complain but I’d like to get back to the easiness it was before and keep myself healthy so the Nuggets can be as healthy as possible as well.

XOXO – Lindz

Out of Hot Water

When I saw the specialist last week, he expressed concern about my cervical length shortening (first indicator of preterm labor).  He said, “Reduce your activity and we’ll check with your next appointment.”

That appointment was today, along with my glucose tolerance test.

The length is okay, stable.  That is what they were looking for, I guess.  Whew.  I spent the last 6 days worrying they might put me on some sort of bed rest.  I have waaaaay too much to do still to be stuck in bed.  But of course, I’ll do whatever is best for the Nuggets.

The glucose tolerance test is to ensure I don’t have gestational diabetes.

When you are pregnant your body becomes very different…obviously.  I’m no medical person but I understand it to mean, ones body can become intolerant to sugar because the digestive process slows down so much to allow the baby(ies) to absorb all the good nutrients from you.  Your body has to adjust to how much insulin it releases and when, to ensure it is processed right.  That sums it up in layman’s terms.

This involves you sitting in the lab, chugging an orange flavored (yuck), sugary, sweet beverage in under 5 minutes.  Lucky for me, it was ice cold and the ladies in the lab were gabbing and keeping me distracted.  I love sweets. This was not horrible but it wasn’t enjoyable either.

Hopefully all is well because otherwise I have to watch my sugar intake and I have no idea how I’d do that…..  No news is good news. 

The Nuggets are moving so much these days I swear they are either 1. trying to escape via my belly button or 2. trying to switch places and then switch back.  The Hubs was laughing at how much movement is happening just by watching my belly. 

In regards to still needing to be ready the following needs to be done in the nursery:
1. Curtains – I am going to try and sew these.  Seriously…shouldn’t be that hard, right?
2. Crib Bed Skirts – Again, homemade…following this tutorial by Ernie Bufflo.
3. We need a dresser/changing table
4. Install shelves

Time to jump on it!

XOXO – Lindz

Delayed Picture Post

Well I’ve been really behind on posting my weekly update pictures. 

I also stopped doing the fruit/vegetable associate with the size of the Nuggets because, well it really isn’t that great of a comparative.  I mean, yeah the Nuggets are approximately the size of a banana but that is mostly referring to their length.  And then a mango which is a completely different shape is mostly referring to their weight.  Either way, when I hit cauliflower as the comparison I said, “forget it”. 

I missed 21, 22, and 23 weeks 😦

I’m obviously getting up there in size.  With twins you’re about the size of a person carrying a singleton, one month ahead of you.  So even though I’m 6 1/2 months, I’d be the same size as someone at 7 1/2 months…which is large and in charge!

I’ve also been playing with different lighting and effects on my camera.  Fun stuff that I hope to master welllllll before I start taking pictures of the Nuggets.

The excitement of being pregnant has still not worn off.  Even with the heartburn, tiredness and achy back/feet.  I still see pictures and or pass by a mirror and I’m grateful.  I think one of my very best friends understands more than most.  Every time I see her, she’s in awe.  She, of course, mentions how my belly has gotten bigger but she just so excited for us in a way that’s very loving.  She sat and listened to me cry many times about how sad I was that this might never happen for us or how unfair it was that it came so easily to others.  And now she shares with me the excitement of it all.  Love that girl and I thank God she is in my life.
This coming weekend we have another trip scheduled for Houston and my Mom and SIL are throwing my first shower.  I’m excited to see the family and friends and even more excited to have a party in my honor :o)
XOXO – Lindz

25 Weeks

Wednesday night we went to the Rangers vs. Yankees game.  Go Rangers!  The Nuggets were moving all OVER the place.  So I think they like sports after all :o)  A bit premature? Nahhhh.

The Hubs as well as my nephew and Mom


I saw the Perinatal Specialists yesterday afternoon which means I got to have a look at the Nuggets again 🙂

Nugget A (on my left) is still head down and weighing in at a whopping 1lb 13oz.  Nugget B (on my right) is still breech and he’s bypassed his brother, for the first time, at 1lb 15oz.  His head is up by my ribs but so are his feet.  Wha?  Yep, he’s folded in half.  This also explains why I feel so much movement on my upper left side — both sets of feet are in the same area.  Lots-o kicks to one area.
I read that this kind of breech (frank breech) is actually the best kind if I were to try and birth him naturally.  What is even better is that his head down brother would come first and “pave the way”.  I have a LOT of reservations about that, especially with twins but I feel the more I read about having the babies naturally, it actually is scaring me into accepting a C-section…which is counter productive.  I should probably stop using the Google Machine 🙂
I have several weeks of belly pics that I just need to upload from my camera.  This weekend.  I promise.

Quick Trip to San Antone

As most of you area aware, the Allen’s called San Antonio home for about 6 years.  It was a great 6 years and a lot happened in that time frame.

We moved away from all of our friends and started our relationship in the same city (for the first time).

We got married (twice actually).

We bought a house.  Had lots of fun, projects and excitement in said house.

When we left it was sooooo bitter sweet.  I had a better opportunity with work in Houston and shortly after Josh obtained a new job too.  Although his job didn’t work out in the end, they are the reason we ended up back in the DFW area and we are grateful.

I was in San Antonio for a business trip and forgot how much I love that city.  And some of the friends we left behind. 

Our old neighbors were the greatest.  Super long story and a coincidence later, we became friends with a couple that lived right down the block.  They are those kind of peeps you meet and just know, they’ll be our life long buds.

In the time we’ve been gone, they’ve gotten married and had a little nugget of their own.  Meet Mr. Rylan!

He’s a super observant, friendly, drool-y and all around happy baby (or was that day)!  I couldn’t get enough of him.  I missed him and our friends as soon as they left. 😦

This weekend was pretty productive.  We are making major progress on the nursery.  Here is a little sneak pic. 

Painting -check. Cribs assembled – check.  I’m holding myself back from buying anything else right now (even crib mattresses) until after the showers because I’m hoping my awesome friends and fam will get us all the stuff we need.  Pretty exciting stuff though.  Every time I walk past the nursery I get excited because we are getting that much closer.
We have one (first) name picked out pretty solid-ly — meaning we both agree on it.  But we’ve I’ve decided that I’d like to meet them first prior to officially naming them so we won’t be sharing the names until they get here.  The other names and middle names are all up in the air still. 
Pregnancy stats:
  • We’ve got another ultra sound with the specialist this week and then I think we are going to be cleared by the specialists and only have to see my Ob-gyn going forward. 
  • I’m not craving anything in particular, just everything sweet in general. 
  • My belly button is completely flat
  • I’m feeling pretty good for the most part but occasionally I’m starting to get uncomfortable (tail bone hurts, back achy, feet hurting)
  • I’m weighing in at a 21 pound gain…gotta stay on track.  That would be a lot if it wasn’t twins but that tidbit gives me extra wiggle room in the gaining area.
We start our child education classes tonight!  I’m really hoping we get a lot out of them.
XOXO

One Month Bigger!

I’m falling down on the blogging job here lately.

I went to the doctor yesterday.

At almost 24 weeks, I’m measuring around a singleton pregnancy of 28 weeks.  That means 9 months pregnant I’ll actually look 10 months!  Ahhhh. 

I also got to have a sonogram yesterday.

The boys are so cute.  Even through a very grain-y picture.  Use your imagination. 

Nugget A likes to move. A LOT.  During the sono he managed to kick his brother several times.  Enough that Nugget B turned his back to him.  Ha!  They are still positioned with A head down and B breech but the sono-grapher said her daughter had twins and they were positioned like that all the way up until 36 weeks and the breech one switched so she could deliver.  There is still hope!

In other news….

The new house is coming along.  The nursery is almost done being painted (pics coming soon), a tree fell down after a bunch of rain the other day and the garage is finally unpacked and organized.  The list of honey-do’s goes on and on.

I might have mentioned this already but our new neighbors own a restaurant around the corner and it’s worth mentioning again.  Moni’s Pizza and Pasta in Arlington is stellar.  We’ve been twice now and neither time has disappointed.  We are probably a little bias because we were hoping it would be good…how awkward would that be seeing our neighbors and thinking their restaurant sucked?  But it doesn’t.  It’s great.  The atmosphere is total mom and pop shop, nothing fancy, but you can tell everyone there is enjoying themselves.  The food is deeeelish.  I ordered a small veggie pizza (pizza of course) and they allowed me to customize it outside of the options listed on the menu.  It came fully loaded, no skimping on the toppings.  The Hubs ordered Capellini de Moni with the pink sauce and added chicken.  He said it was rich and creamy without going overboard and again, no shortcomings on the extra grilled chicken.  The prices are quite fair, if not even on the low side, for what you get. The best money saver is BYOB, so you can bring in a bottle of wine or an entire cooler full of your favorite beverage and they offer you a cold glass!  They’ve been there for 20 years so the tenure alone should speak to the quality of the restaurant.

I travel for work the remainder of the week to my old stomping grounds, San Antonio, Texas.  I love that city and I’m looking forward to seeing some much-missed friends!

Fullfilled

Sometimes, I walk past the mirror and see my baby bump, and cannot believe it’s me. 

It really happened.  I’m pregnant. It’s actually happening. 

That is really my body, with our two babies growing. 

The Hubs says he has these feelings sometimes too.

Not even a year ago, I was posting about how hopeless I felt.  In the past, I have been very conflicted in regards to IVF.  I used words like, “I’ll never“, which turned into “I really don’t want to“, which eventually turned into, “This is obviously the path we have to take“.

Even in the beginning of this pregnacy, I was worried it wasn’t really going to work.  I thought I’d miscarry (thanks to the horror stories on .net).  I thought, this is too good to be true.  But by the grace of God, I’ve got two baby boys on the way. 

I’m so grateful.  I’m so thankful.  I’m so excited.