It’s Official

I’ve gone and done it.

I quit my day job.

I’m making my mommy job my number one priority.

I’m nervous. Scared. Worried. Elated.

Last month, I attended a seminar. At this seminar there were all these astonishing women. They introduced one of the attorneys as recognized amongst the state of Texas as the next big thing. Then her counterpart stated, “you’d never believe she had quintuplets eight months ago.” My mouth, seriously, hung open.

When I picked myself up off the floor, another speaker talked about while working for Toms (ya know, the awesome shoe company that gives back?) as an executive and traveling to Nepal, while pumping breast milk in the backseat of a Jeep. Again, I am blown away.

Both of these women were a few years my senior but had children around The Nuggets’ age. I was just dazed that they can find any sort of balance. I don’t feel like I can give 100% at my job, when I’d rather be giving 100% to my kids. There has to be balance and I cannot find it. Or at least find enough balance to where I am satisfied with how I’m as a mom and how I am at work.

This is not to say parents (not just moms) who chose to work, aren’t doing a great job at both or either. This is how I feel. I might feel differently if I had job I absolutely loved, or if my job offered more flexibility and less demands where I could actually have some semblance of balance.

I don’t even know if I’ll be good at the SAHM role. I’m aware that it is not an easy job.  Not everyone is actually cut out for it.

Up until this point we’ve had a fantastic nanny. She has done a great job with the boys and unfortunately, she’s run into conflicts where her own family’s needs conflicts with the hours we need her to work.

God has a plan and this opportunity has put itself in front of us and we’re going to take it.  I’d also like to add that The Hubs has volunteered to be a SAHD but he makes a bit more bacon, so I win!

So in approximately one month, this lady right here will be spending the next several years, raising her boys.

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Don’t you know, I’ll add that shit to my resume

XOXO

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Bestie + Gender

It is still raining in Texas.  I heard someone blaming El Nino in a joking manner and then on the news last night I learned, it really does have to do with El Nino!

Luckily, there has been reprieve from the rain enough to let the Nuggets outside to play for a few hours but they were ecstatic to actually go bye-bye this weekend.

On Saturday we attended a gender reveal party for my best friend.  I don’t use the terminology best friend lightly.  My mom used to tell me, “You’re lucky if you have one, to two best friends in your lifetime.”  I am very lucky to have Erin as my friend.  As my sister.

Gender reveal parties are SO fun. Whether you chose to wait until your baby actually pops out or if you find out in advance, it’s exciting. But having a party is the best.

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Erin is not a patient person and she doesn’t do well with keeping secrets, so when her results came in on Wednesday, it was a dash to drop it off with Janet from Sweet Pee Cupcakes (N. Dallas area) so she didn’t peek.  When we arrived on Saturday for brunch, I told The Hubs I would time how long before she wanted to cut into that cake.  She made it one hour and 10 minutes.  I was impressed!

When the time finally came, there was a pretty even vote between boy verse girl but, I think in the end, pink was favored.  (That was my guess).

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G I R L !!!!

There were a lot of high pitched squeals of excitement and both of the Nuggets freaked out.  They’re not so much for loud commotions.

Monday I went out and bought these…

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I actually sent a picture of them to her and she was like, “pleeeease buy them for me?!” and I was like, “girrrrrl, I never put them down!”  This, among other things.  I totally enjoy buying for my boys but this will be a new kind of fun!

Erin is one of my most favorite people and I am over the moon for her + husband and I cannot wait to meet little the new lil Missy.

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Weston thought something was funny.  Probably the number of pictures we had to take to get this shot — and I still ended up with hair in my face.

XOXO,

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Fluttering

More like skipped a beat altogether, but fluttering was happening! Ultra sound number two went great!  I’ve been released to my OB-GYN so I can progress to a normal, happy pregnancy!  :o)

It’s official.  The Allen’s have twins on the way.  We got to see the Nuggets and even got to see/hear the heartbeats, which I was not expecting, so my giddy-ness hit new heights.  Let me add, as the doctor walked in, I was wiping away tears after hearing my stupid car’s transmission needed to be re-built and it would cost us $4000.  I just felt like we can’t catch a break here.  Then I was quickly brought back to the positive when we saw all that fluttering.  We are telling the Maltz side this weekend and then The Hub’s side the following weekend.  So we’ve still got it under wraps.  We’ll make it social media public in a few more weeks.  I’m bursting though. 

As we left yesterday, I totally hugged Nurse Nina and Dr. Le and said thank you a billion times.  I sort of felt strange though because we were in the open part of the office and there were other patients around.  Since I don’t know where they are in their infertility journey, I was nervous about making them feel bad.  Then I thought, well hopefully we will give them confidence in IVFmd and their staff of miracle workers.

After leaving cloud 9, it was back to reality and dealing with my car.  We purchased a used Buick Enclave in Nov 2011 and the thing was a damn lemon.  Then we learn that the transmission needs to be re-built and I think, “no biggie, that falls under power train warranty”…except it was a 5 years/100,000 miles warranty.  I thought it was just 100,000 miles and therefore our warranty went up in January. Two stink’n months ago.  With $4000 worth of repairs, we said forget it.  We were so upside down and it turned out to be just not a good investment.

So now I’m cruising around in this….


2013 GMC Terrain

It’s really nice.  It’s a lease.  I’m worried the money piece of it was a dumb idea again but we were really in a pinch and didn’t have many options.  I’m not a person that does debt well.  I like to live within my means or even under it so this has been really hard for me.  But with two nuggets on the way, we needed something reliable and safe.  It’s much smaller than my Enclave but equally as fancy (if not nicer) with all the bells and whistles.  In three years when it’s time to trade it in, then we’ll see if we made another horrible financial decision and go from there.

Lots of changes and lots to look forward to in the future. I’m so excited.  So excite.  But also really, really nervous.  We go from no children to two at once!  I’m good with it because with the past 5 years of trying I was worried we would have only one child.  Which is hard, ask anyone who is an only child. But twins!  That’s like a built-in-best-friend! :o)

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My results came back and my bet number almost tripled!!!!  I’m over 1400, which my nurse said is fantastic!!!!

I’m scheduled for my first peek at the Nugget next Monday.  Instead of being completely nervous and anxious for my appointments, now I’m just really excited.  There is a level of nervousness that is still bubbling under all the happiness, and I imagine it will make a big come back when we go to hear the heartbeat (10-12 weeks), but I’m being positive.  It worked before, it’ll work again!

Now, I’m on the hunt for fun ways to “announce” it to all of the parents.  We will be in Houston to visit my parents for Easter weekend and I was thinking to do something Easter themed.  Like a giant plastic Easter egg with something inside that says “We are egg-cited to be egg-specting!” or “Lindsey will be “hatching” in November” or even something with little yellow chicks and “Baby Allen chick will arrive in November”. 

Any of those good? All of them dorky? Yes, but I love dorky.

big bunnies….

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I need to hit up Hobby Lobby or Garden Ridge to see what I can come up with as my creative genes are not in the surplus, never have been.

Any ideas?  Throw ’em at me!  I’ve waited a loooooong time to be able to tell people that we’re expecting and I’m excited to have fun with it.