I’ve gone and done it.
I quit my day job.
I’m making my mommy job my number one priority.
I’m nervous. Scared. Worried. Elated.
Last month, I attended a seminar. At this seminar there were all these astonishing women. They introduced one of the attorneys as recognized amongst the state of Texas as the next big thing. Then her counterpart stated, “you’d never believe she had quintuplets eight months ago.” My mouth, seriously, hung open.
When I picked myself up off the floor, another speaker talked about while working for Toms (ya know, the awesome shoe company that gives back?) as an executive and traveling to Nepal, while pumping breast milk in the backseat of a Jeep. Again, I am blown away.
Both of these women were a few years my senior but had children around The Nuggets’ age. I was just dazed that they can find any sort of balance. I don’t feel like I can give 100% at my job, when I’d rather be giving 100% to my kids. There has to be balance and I cannot find it. Or at least find enough balance to where I am satisfied with how I’m as a mom and how I am at work.
This is not to say parents (not just moms) who chose to work, aren’t doing a great job at both or either. This is how I feel. I might feel differently if I had job I absolutely loved, or if my job offered more flexibility and less demands where I could actually have some semblance of balance.
I don’t even know if I’ll be good at the SAHM role. I’m aware that it is not an easy job. Not everyone is actually cut out for it.
Up until this point we’ve had a fantastic nanny. She has done a great job with the boys and unfortunately, she’s run into conflicts where her own family’s needs conflicts with the hours we need her to work.
God has a plan and this opportunity has put itself in front of us and we’re going to take it. I’d also like to add that The Hubs has volunteered to be a SAHD but he makes a bit more bacon, so I win!
So in approximately one month, this lady right here will be spending the next several years, raising her boys.
Don’t you know, I’ll add that shit to my resume